Being like a Feather

Lets get it going! I call it "the test run month" but the truth is: I can´t await it anymore.  So today I got my kitchen organized, boiled some chickpeas and azuki beans (for further use in healthy meals) and bought fresh fruits and vegetables. So beautiful - all those colours and so fresh! Can´t wait to dig in!  I also did the laundry and created a "To Do List" ... just because I want to start fully prepared. While organizing my kitchen I discovered I only have two non-vegan-products stocked at home: honey and margarine (with buttermilk). Do I wanna become fully vegan? No. My intention is to eat and drink as natural and healthy as possible. Most of the time I eat vegan, true. But I do not want to label myself. I do not want to control every ingredient and feel guilty if my diet is not 100% vegan.  I also have to confess that I still love eggs and sometimes I am dying for Sushi.  So, that´s the kitchen stuff - all ready to get it going. What else is going to happen ...

My today´s breakfast:  a big glass of water - in my fancy totem glass (I love it!) and a milk-shake made out of  *** 1 banana, a hand full of frozen sour cherries, linseeds and sesame, cinnamon and organic cacao powder, almond milk ***  Originally I wanted to get up pretty early on this my day off today and head to the beach in the morning.  I did get up at 5:30am but I absolutely didn´t feel like already beginning the day. I was grumpy and listless. So I went back to bed. Yes, it´s a pity to loose the chance of an early morning swim but I know myself pretty well. There is no need to force myself to do something I am not feeling like doing it. I would have dragged myself to the beach, I would have been angry with the people on the way there and I would be sitting at the sea with dark thoughts. For sure there is no need for that! Better to let the day unfold itself. And when I am not up to do anything more than eat my breakfast and write this blog .. than so be it! I ...

The power of our thoughts is so enormous! Some years ago I´ve learned that the age of 49 is a very special milestone in our life. 49 = 7 x 7 = the absolute new beginning! Every 7 years the body renews itself completely. So 7 times 7 means we´ve ended one whole cycle of renewing. In the age of 49 we start a complete new cycle. Now, I do love new beginnings in general. That´s why I impatiently anticipated the age of 49.  Last year when I turned 48, means starting my 49th year of life, I instinctively began to prepare for "the big day". Not always with full intention. Some manifestations just seemed to happen by themselves. I guess my subconscious just took over from my thoughts and from my anticipation.  Layer by layer everything I didn´t want in my life anymore fell away. I became more strict and more honest as the time moved on. It got harder for me to make any compromises when it came to my wellbeing and to my dream of how I want to live my life. I did struggle on the way. I...

A couple of months ago I was waiting at the bus station one evening for the bus number 21 to take me home. An elderly Maltese lady approached the station right when we saw the bus 21 arriving.  "How lucky you are! You came exactly at the right time" I said to her. Only that the bus 21 didn´t stop for us ... We both were waving him down but the bus driver, though the bus was almost empty, decided to not stop for us. A bit shocked, very surprised but laughing at the same time we expressed our opinion about that rudeness. Now we needed to wait for about 20 minutes to catch the next bus. Which gave us the opportunity for a chat. And it was a very pleasant chat! That elderly lady was so much fun! We even kept on talking when we finally entered the bus together. What a coincidence that we even were heading for the same destination. When we stood on the pavement and saying our Good byes, Doris, I learned her name was, gave me a hug. "It was a pleasure to meet you. Hopefully we ...

An unusual day off today. Waking up early - pretty early. I got up at 5:50am! That´s even earlier than on a working day. Am I getting old, I wonder? Well, the reason why I got up so early was the start of my new blog. I was so excited to get it going. So maybe this threw me out of bed. And I am pretty amazed how fast I got it going. Because I needed a title first and knowing from experience this could take me hours and costs me creativity!  But today I did well! Two thoughts and the right title was there: "Being like a Feather" I love feathers! Feathers incarnate everything important for me: - Feathers - significant in the Native American culture - Feathers - the symbol for writing - Feathers - the connection between heaven and earth  - Feathers - my personal guide for years - Feathers - an often used symbol with Highly Sensitivity  So "Being like a Feather" appears to be the perfect title for my blog. I am really happy about it! After that hurdle was taken I wrote ...

"Darling ... it´s time!" Have you ever seen the movie "Eat Pray Love" with Julia Roberts and Javier Bardem?  I saw it about hundreds of times and watched it recently. Maybe this is why I had this scene on my mind when I decided to sit down and start a decent blog about my life as a Highly Sensitive Person. In this scene Liz (Julia Roberts) and Felipe (Javier Bardem) are spending a quiet evening in Felipe´s beautiful house in Bali. They already know each other for quite a while and they feel very comfortable with each other.  This evening they are sitting on different couches opposite from each other, both are reading a book, a glass of white wine next to them. Liz is focused on her lecture, Javier looks at her with a smile. He knows it is time for the next step - however he is scared. He has been hurt too much and therefore he is afraid to get too close.  But it is the right time. He needs to overcome his fears. He needs to open up again. So he slowly gets up, walks...