"Darling, it is time!"

"Darling ... it´s time!"

Have you ever seen the movie "Eat Pray Love" with Julia Roberts and Javier Bardem? 

I saw it about hundreds of times and watched it recently. Maybe this is why I had this scene on my mind when I decided to sit down and start a decent blog about my life as a Highly Sensitive Person.

In this scene Liz (Julia Roberts) and Felipe (Javier Bardem) are spending a quiet evening in Felipe´s beautiful house in Bali. They already know each other for quite a while and they feel very comfortable with each other. 

This evening they are sitting on different couches opposite from each other, both are reading a book, a glass of white wine next to them. Liz is focused on her lecture, Javier looks at her with a smile. He knows it is time for the next step - however he is scared. He has been hurt too much and therefore he is afraid to get too close. 

But it is the right time.

He needs to overcome his fears. He needs to open up again.

So he slowly gets up, walks over to his music system and puts one of his mixed tapes into it.

"Wonderful, marvellous ... that you should care for me ..." 

Then he slowly walks over to Liz. You can see the anticipation but also fear in his smile. He stands quite in front of Liz till she looks up at him. The both smile at each other. Then he slowly takes the book out of her hands, marks the page and puts it aside. 

"Darling ... it´s time!"

I didn´t put a mixed tape into my music system. I don´t even have a music system. And I didn´t mark the page of a book to put it aside. 

I got up very early today on my day off, lit a candle and sit on the couch with my laptop.

"Darling ... it´s time!"

It´s time to share my experience and my strategies with the world. I´ve come that far and I´ve been through so much. I´ve learned my lessons. Though many more lessons are ahead of me. I am sure of that. In order to survive I had to find my own ways. 

It´s that simple said: in order to survive I had to find my own ways.

And those ways I want to share with the world.

We are living in a very intense time at the moment. We received our wake up call in form of a pandemic. 

Now that is our biggest chance ever!

This is our chance to re-focus on our life! How do we want to live our life? What is important for us? What and who does belong to us and what does not fit into our life anymore?

Those questions are not new to me. For a Highly Sensitive Person those questions are essential. 

We Highly Sensitive People always focus on the big picture and we need to know what is our goal in life. Where do we go to? What is the purpose of our life? Where did we come from?

I believe that everyone should ask those questions. Especially when times are challenging.

Right now we are living in an extremely intense time. 

I feel thorn apart most of the time.

On one side I´ve found my path and I´ve got an idea how my life should look like from now on. On the other side I am struggling with the outside world.

I need to be more honest than ever - honest to myself and honest to the people around me. But the world seems so fake to me. 

Doesn´t the world seem fake to you?

Last Sunday I met with a friend and we took a walk at the sea. There is this fancy club directly at the sea and people started to gather for the evening. 

I was shocked!

So many beautiful but fake people. Especially young people who dressed up for a summer party. They looked so fake in their outfits. So "overdone". 

Young girls showing every possible inch of their skin, wearing high heels in which they hardly could walk in and most of them didn´t seem to feel very comfortable with themselves. 

But the most shocking thing was that they all look alike ...

Like they were using the same pattern to get ready for that evening. 

That made me so sad. 
I don´t want to live in such a fake world. I don´t belong into such a fake world. I can´t deal with that anymore.

My world is colourful and varied. 

My world is challenging and complicated. But so fulfilling at the same time. 

My world is full of surprises. 

Sometimes my world is a roller coaster ride and frustrating most of the time. But at the same time I am so grateful for it.

I simply do not understand why people would choose a fake world instead of all of that!

Maybe they do not know better?

Well, a Highly Sensitive Person knows about all of that because it´s the essential of our life! 

It´s in our nature to see the big picture. 

We are constantly on the search for the purpose in everything. While dealing with the circumstances of life we have to find our own path ... simply to survive.

For almost 50 years I am on the search for my own path. I´ve failed many times. But that´s okay. For sure I know now what I DON´T want anymore. 

Definitely I will fail many times more. But that´s also okay. Better trying and failing then not doing anything at all. 

Moving forward. Finding new ways. Shovelling ballast out of my way. Creating space for everything that makes me happy. Getting rid of bad habits. Learning. Exploring. Loving. Sharing experience. 

"Darling ... it´s time!"