DO YOUR STUFF, INSPIRE OTHERS. BUT THAT´S IT!
“DO YOUR STUFF.
INSPIRE OTHERS.
BUT THAT´S IT!”
For example:
When I am not feeling
good, I theoretical know it would be the most helpful thing to really take good
care of myself, to be patient with myself and to keep on doing the “good things”.
But what do I do? I still fall into that dark hole. I tend to give up and to
feel like a looser. Instead of taking extra good care of myself in those crisis
I start to eat unhealthy again and I feel bad about that too. Afterward it
takes some more energy to get back to my new pure and natural routine.
And there is
another thing on my mind:
The most important
thing, which I demand for myself, I am not able to give to others!
I demand my own
free will, my free spirit and my ability to live my life exactly how I want it
to be, right?
So why do I still
get that angry about the behaviour of others? Why do I judge them? Why do I
think I know what is right or wrong?
“DO YOUR STUFF.
INSPIRE OTHERS.
BUT THAT´S IT!”
As a Highly Sensitive
Person I have enough to do with myself. Believe me.
And I am not complaining
anymore. Thank God and all the Universe I came to love my sensibility. For no
money in the world I would want it differently anymore. Okay, easy to say, now
that the hardest years are over, but I already came a long way and that´s why
it is time to enjoy all the effort.
I guess the most
important thing as a HSP is to know exactly who I am. I need to know how I am
ticking, what makes me happy, what is unhealthy for me. The more I know myself,
the more I can take care of myself.
And about that I
did a really amazing job over the years!
When I am well,
when I am in a positive mood I can replace mountains.
I do remember times
when I thought of myself as very selfish. And yes, I needed to be selfish to
survive. Today I know how much I protected myself best like that. But what is
also true: in this selfishness I also became a better person and therefore I am
able to contribute my part.
For example:
I love to go to restaurants
and cafés. Not because I am not able to cook for myself ... but to be among
people without being with people. I am comfortable in being a loner, though I
am also an extroverted person. This is why I need the contact with people. On
my own terms.
So the last measurements
against Covid 19 of closing the restaurants, open them only for take away and
delivery, hit me hard.
First I lost my
social platforms.
Second I was not
willing to litter with single used take away packaging!
So what I did in
my selfish act, of keeping what I really love, was: bringing my own containers,
cutlery and napkins from home, getting my take away meals – as trash and
package free as possible – and enjoy lunch, dinner or a coffee with some sweet
sins - at the sea, in the sun, with a book, sitting on a towel I also brought from home.
Nobody makes me
litter when I don´t want to litter!
So with my selfishness
I also take care of Mother Earth.
In the restaurants
I often heard a big “THANK YOU”. Then I would say:
“You know what? I don´t do it for the planet in the first place. I don´t do it
for you to safe packages and therefore money. I just do it because it makes ME feel good.”
And that is what I meant when I said: while being selfish I am also able to contribute my part.
I guess the big
secret of success in every meaning of the word is to be selfish enough to follow
our own calling. There is this inner voice which would tell us where we should
heading to when only we would listen to it.
I guess the world
would be a much better place if more of us would be a little bit more selfish.
Selfish in a way to do what is good for us and for our own wellbeing.
It works for me.
Because what I
found out is how much I am connected to Mother Earth and Nature.
It´s not only that
I love plants and animals, I do feel connected with them as living creatures,
as my relatives.
I am part of
nature, as much as a carrot is part of it and as much as a lizard is ...
So I guess no one
ever had to tell me to protect Nature.
As HSP I know I am
able to feel “more” than others.
For a short period
in my life I was open for spiritual input. Like I was able to feel souls around
me. I remember a time when I would regularly wake up, frozen of fear, because I
felt “somebody” in my flat. I was told that the souls of dead people try to
reach out for my help. They would not harm me and even would not push me if I
was not ready to help them.
And I for sure was
not ready for that.
So they stopped
coming at night ...
Later on I would
have loved to “work with that ability” but obviously I was not open for it anymore.
I do believe in
more than I can see. That´s for sure.
But instead of
being connected to the spirits around us I am a grounded person through and through.
Though I know I have my own Guardian Angel I do not “feel” the connection with
angels and angelic beings. Though I know that I lived before and will live again
in order to learn my life lessons I am not able to connect with myself in another
life.
Only exception is
my deep connection with the Native Americans.
I know I was among
them before. I know I belong to them in a certain way. And that is what fits
perfectly: my connection with the Natives obviously explains my connection with
Mother Earth, with Nature. Makes totally sense for me! Otherwise I totally
believe in the Universe and in Wakan Tanka – the Great Mystery.
“DO YOUR STUFF.
INSPIRE OTHERS.
BUT THAT´S IT!”
So you see: as a
HSP I have a lot to do with myself, with my stuff.
As much as I love
to inspire others I love to get inspired!
What I am still struggling
with is: - Inspire others – is all I could wish for! And actively this is what
I am doing. I love to do my stuff and share it with others. When somebody
follows my ways it makes me very happy:
Friends who show
me their own glass containers, which they brought from home because they like
me doing it.
People who read my
blog or my posts on “Heading Home” and who like what they are reading or
sharing their own thoughts with me.
Colleagues who proudly
present me their own crochet little things they made because they got inspired
by my self made things.
People who tell me
how much they like my self made cosy for my coffee glass jar. I´ve got a dark
red cosy made out of t-shirt yarn for years and my colleagues keep telling me: “I
know that is yours when you leave it in the kitchen!”
So those are the
amazing “outcomes” of my own doing.
These reactions make
me happy because I inspired somebody by simply doing what I am doing.
I do not want to
judge people and I do not want to tell people what to do. I really try NOT to do
that actively. But this is the hard part: I am still judging. I am still
getting angry by the missing empathy of others. I still don´t get it how people
in 2021 are not able to think about Mother Earth or about Nature.
Also when it comes
to “help” friends I am way to impulsive.
This is something a
friend made me understand the other day.
When she was
opening up to me I impulsively told her how I understood her situation and gave
her some advices. Afterward we were talking about my behaviour because I wasn’t
comfortable in sounding like a wise person who knows all the secrets of life.
She asked me: “Do
you know why you are doing so?”
And I was able to
answer right away: “Yes! Because I needed to learn all those things. For me it
was life saving to learn all of that for myself. And it was not easy. It took a
lot of time. So now that I found my solutions I so want to share them with
others because I really would love to share my hard found results with others,
make it easier for them. What I do forget is that my solutions are not the solutions
of others. My “secrets” seem so true for me that I forget that everyone has his
own “secrets”.”
And she said
something really important:
“I need to find my
own solutions by myself.”
“DO YOUR STUFF.
INSPIRE OTHERS.
BUT THAT´S IT!”
Let everyone find
their own way! – That´s a lesson I still have to learn.
Because there is
nothing more satisfying than to reach the top of a mountain alone, without help!
Only then you can stand there and shout proudly into the world:
“I DID IT! I DID IT ALL BY MYSELF!”
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