MY PATH


My intense year 2020 - full of self-discovery and seeking for new ways - ended with feeling awful and hopeless.
Glad I found out that I only responded to the enormous energy shifting which happened in the Universe. Though knowing this doesn´t change the actual feeling, it is more easy to bare when I know it is an Universal issue and not a personal one. 

So, like probably every one else, I was glad that "special" year came to an end. The highlight was a special Winter Solstice on December 21sth and an earth quake a day later. From that day on I felt the earth trembling. And with that also my heart was beating "louder". Not faster but I was able to feel my heartbeat in every corner of my body. I even saw the heartbeat when I for example looked at my hand.
With this odd feeling I stepped into the New year 2021.
Usually loving the fresh start of a New Year I felt kind of numb this time. I couldn´t motivate myself to get it going. I didn´t have any energy left for positive thoughts. 

Thank God I´ve been provided with the absolute right thing at that time:
an advert about a documentation series appeared on my Facebook page

The Time of the Sixth Sun

The movie and the eight series answered most of my actual questions about what is going on right now in the world and why I am feeling the way I am feeling. Plus a lot of First Nation People and Indigenous People appeared on the screen. 

Nevertheless I am in the midst of a substantial life change. 
The down side is that most of the time I feel like I don´t have enough energy to change whatever there is that needs to be changed.
Also I know in theory that right now at this special milestone of human evolution it is important to get connected. Well, I really feel connected with nature and Mother Earth. But I do not feel connected with most of the people around me ...

I do not like that and I try my best to change that. On the other hand it is what it is. Right?

This last year showed us all that we have to change the way we think, the way we act and the way we feel. It is time to remember what is really important and it is important to let go what is not important at all.

To bring it together in one sentence:
We need to heal Mother Earth to heal our self!

When I say I don´t feel connected with most of the people around me then it is because I do not see the big changes I hoped for in or because of that pandemic. 
People still act like they have nothing to do with nature and Mother Earth.
People still destroy nature as if they would not be part of that nature!

Isn´t that Corona crisis an enough clear sign that we humans are doing something wrong?
Are we still not getting it?

Anyway, I have to take those thoughts off my "list". 
What I have to do is to follow MY OWN PATH.

So that is what I am doing now - more than ever. 

And there is something new and something really beautiful going on inside me:
No matter how hopeless or how clueless I feel - whenever I am aware that I am off balance I am able to center myself. Then I "see" the big picture and I am aware of my part and my place in it.
This calms me immediately. 

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