Universe, do we have a deadline?

Really, I mean it:
Universe, do we have a deadline??

I know that in about three weeks the big day is coming up. I know what will happen then. I mean, I do feel it strong and clear.

All this last year, the 49th year of life, was a preparation for that day. I get it. But do we have to solve EVERYTHING before that?

The last weeks would have been too much for me if I wouldn´t know what is going on. Something really nice for a change: I sit down, lean back, see the chaos storm, watch it with a calm grin on my face and think to myself: "Yep, I know. That also has to be done before August, 7. Makes sense."

07.08.2020

7+8+2+2=19
1+9=10
1+0=1 

ONE!
The number of beginning. HA! Even that fits.

07.08.2020 - my 49th Birthday! Which I was waiting for so long!!
Cause 49 - 7x7 - is the beginning of a new life circle. Since I learned about that a few years ago it was on my mind and I was looking forward to it so badly.

Now last year the roller coaster started. Suddenly all my life lessons made sense. I met amazing people who taught me in different ways that I should be proud of who I am. I started to realize what lays within me and where my life journey should head from now on. 
Never ever would I hide me being highly sensitive anymore! Quite on the contrary. I will cherish it and I will honour what makes me being me. 
The urge to be as honest as possible got stronger and stronger. It became naturally to me to say out what I feel and to be honest to people around me.

Then, in the beginning of this year it seems that Universe checked the list and found out that there are still so many more things to do before the new circle of life could start.
Easy for the Universe - just send a pandemic where I would have a couple of months to focus on myself very intense.
Did a pretty good job, cause that corona crisis was my chance to change my habits and to see clearly who I am and what my needs are!  

And now, as the big day is coming closer, it feels like we are in a rush. Yes! I do know there are still some issues on the agenda. 
I get that.
These days I almost can feel it right away when something is not right. That happens when I think too negative or when I behave wrong. 
Situations are very transparent right now. 
Also things from the past are coming up without any trigger - it seems. Memories pop up in my mind without me knowing where they are coming from.
But it´s okay. I get it.
I am grateful for those new clear feelings and for the obviously more analytic brain. It seems if many, many layers fell off. Layers which bothered me, layers of "old" experiences.

The goal is pretty clear. 
I guess we - the Universe and me - have worked long enough together to understand each other in a clear and direct way.
07.08.2020 - is too important to be not prepared. I mean, I am starting a new circle of life! I do know how important that is. And most of all I am grateful for that and I am looking forward to it.

So, Universe, lets get it going!! There is still a lot to do! Hurry up!! 
 






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